At my weigh-in last monday night, I lost another one and a half pounds, so I am now only five pounds away from my goal weight, three pounds away from a healthy BMI and I have lost a total of 132.5 pounds.
It has become a real struggle to lose even the smallest amounts of weight and I am feeling conflicted. I told myself I was not going to crazy lengths to get this weight off ever again, but that feels like exactly what I am doing. Spending an hour on the elliptical crosstrainer at level 6 and above and an rpm of 10.5 to 11.5, then more than an hour on the Wii Fit, and then still doing an hour's walk with the dog later at night, and even sometimes throwing in 30 minutes exercising to my Tae Bo video, is going to extremes. I also don't think I am eating enough. This is not a pace that I can keep up and so it is not practical for a long-term solution.
The problem that I am facing is that I really, really do NOT want to gain any weight back right now, not when I am so close to my goal. But if I go back to my normal, more moderate exercise routine and eating more, my weight will go up. It won't be a permanent problem, as I am sure my weight will go back down again once it gets adjusted to the healthier regime again. But when I am so close to my goal, I really, really don't want to have to let it go up and then wait for it to come back down again. I'd rather get to my goal and then slowly return my routine back to normal, allowing for small, temporary gains in the interim.
I'm conflicted about this, but I shouldn't be. Good health is my ultimate goal, so it's pretty clear what I need to do.
after reading your post, should I congratulate?ReplyDelete
it's tough I'm sure..especially after already losing so much weight.
youll get there!
I do think that perhaps you are just pushing it a bit far to get to goal, which may not be practical *right now* for your body. Why don't you head back to some more moderate habits, watch the scale like a hawk and make sure you aren't gaining ridiculously, and then after your body is at a comfortable setpoint you can ease it back down?ReplyDelete
At that weight you should really only be trying to lose maybe .25 or half a pound a week - anything more would require too much of a calorie deficit.
Do you think you can content yourself with a MUCH slower rate of loss? I can't imagine how frustrating it would be to be SO CLOSE to goal and have the weight be so difficult to take off, but that may just be the way the chips fall.
Just because you don't make your BMI goal doesn't mean you are not amazingly accomplished, healthy, beautiful, AND inspirational! Your goal may need more time and/or reassessing, but the monstrous effort and achievement you have put in bears its' own testament to the kind of lady you are.
Bravo, regardless of what you choose!
That is hard. It's one of the fears I have about geting near goal. How to moderate life with weight loss goals?? I hope you find a balance somehow. I'll be watching :)ReplyDelete
wow 132 pounds!!ReplyDelete
like Rebecca said, should I congratulate?
relax and enjoy your accomplishment. It is an inspiration to many!!